movies and soundtracks

i finally had the time to download songs that i like from movies.
cool or mushy, these movies brings back good memories.
the singles movie and reality bites brings back my grunge days
aka nirvana, pearl jam and soundgarden.
and yeah, i used to wear oversized checkered polos.
it was cool way back then,
but if you get caught wearing stuff like that today,
come on, pare...90's pa yun...
puro metrosexual na mga guys ngayon...
straight dudes even wear babytees now.
but late 90's was such a cool era.

sixteen candles and pretty in pink from the 80's!
molly ringwald and this cute guy with curly hair pero banlag? what's his name?
hey, consider me as ancient but i wasn't a teen during 80's then so i didn't get to contribute
to the damage of the ozone layer due to spray net.
dipa ko kikay nun.
pig tails palang and gel sometimes. damn frizzy hair!
baggy clothes!
oh but hey, i used to put tons of suave pomade on my hair during highschool days.
p*#kdlkkx!!!*# ang baduy ko!
oh, those were the days that i can only consume 2 slices of bread a day and tons of coffee.
i get to eat one heavy snack once a week.
and that would be a slice of black forest, sansrival or blueberry cheesecake.
damn, anorexic.

the crow movie soundtrack and x-files brings back the days that i always wear black,
but i do not know.. i think i'll always be a misfit anyway.hehe.

oh, this movie that i've seen multiple times already!
she's all that! when freddie prinze jr. was such hot stuff then.before he married buffy.
yeah..those were the times that i wanted to become a fine arts student.
but it's not because rachel leigh cook inspired me to become a painter.
oh! the kiss me song!

10 things i hate about you!
i want you to want me by letters to cleo!

where is heath ledger now, anyway?
ano ba ginagawa ko nung time na yun?
oh, i became such a Lay's potato chips sour cream & onion flavor addict.

until now.

if ever my life is like a movie,
ano bang soundtracks?
hmmm...
the art of letting go by valley of chrome,will your ever learn, forget and the boston drama by typecast.
(darn...tool will definitely kill me! they sooo hate emo...)
but hey, i am entitled to some emo moments sometimes.
though VOC is not emo, okay? they're metal.)

oh, if i am not sulking,
i feel like singing the dontcha song by the pussycat dolls.
'cause i feel fab and sexy sometimes.harhar!

i think i had too much coffee.
loquacious.
i've got to go home na.

this is friday night.

no regrets?

i had my first crush in preparatory school.
i know it is too darn early to have a crush at such a young age.
but what can i do? he's adorable.
too bad he didn't became my boyfriend at that time.
(don't be shocked.i have a friend who had a boyfriend in prep.no kidding.)

oh, this is the time of chiz curlz


and peewee!



the next one became my long time crush.
we were in first grade then.he has this cool hair cut with long and funky bangs.
i used to watch him everytime he cracks a joke during recess
while i munch on my two pandesal with cheese and orange juice in tupperware cup
with my blue lunchbox.

I have learned that he's really smart when we were in fifth grade.
he usually get high grades to almost perfect quizzes without breaking a sweat
(or maybe he seriously studies at home then act cool in class without cramming).
until now, my heart palpitates whenever i see him.

during the second grade that i had my first kiss.
well, i do not know if it can be considered as a kiss because the cute kid kissed me on my elbow.
hmmm..i wonder if it was a fetish.
he watches porn at that time already.
hahaha....
or maybe my mighty kid shoes and pig tails with pink ribbons had an additional appeal to him.
or it was that blue johnson's baby cologne and baby powder...

on the fifth grade that i first had someone serenade me.
and that lucky song was



"bakit labis kitang mahal" by ariel rivera. embarassing but oh sooo true.

i was in sixth grade that i actually realized that i love rock music other than

ultimate warrior,





brett "the hitman" heart


and shawn michaels of WWF(world wrestling federation).


and yeah,



jon bon jovi was such a hearthrob to me.but it wasn't that bad.




i know a girl who made a portrait of justin timberlake before she became a fine arts student. laban ka?

highschool years was not a good year for me. i had a bunch of crushes including math geeks.but who wants to date a girl who listens to

marilyn manson and reads anne rice, right?

it was in college that i met my first boyfriend.
and yes, marilyn manson finally added to my appeal of being desirable.

he's a big rock fan, although in the end, he got so jealous of manson,
he stopped listening to his music.haha! cute...
i had my few shares of crushes in college as well.
(but hey, i was faithful the whole time, okay?wag kang magalit :) ).

but this particular guy that i totally regret being my crush.
it wasn't because i am not his type and he considers me as invisible.
i was so smitten by him because he listens to a lot of goth bands.
but my friends do keep on pointing out his imperfections.
they often tell me.ona, crush mo yan? he's got long hair,
he's tall, thin but with beer belly na parang butete,
he's dirty and he's got a set of really bad teeth!
but still, he makes me smile everytime i see him!
but after two years of not seeing butete guy,
then i have realized...why did i freaking like him?!
the hell was i thinking.

oh well, i am still not cool after college.



i still like sam. even if we already know he's dating piolo.

amore

I am in love.
seriously.
i do not joke about these things.
why would I.
last saturday was almost perfect.
the dinner was perfect.
the presentation is good.
the place is nice.
the bill was reasonable.
after dinner,
i wanted to marry the chef.

where is the equilibrium?

one hundred sit-ups,
ten minute arm and leg exercise
and a big appetite every meal, every single day.

I even manage to sleep 8 hours a day even if I work in night shift.
but why is it that my doctor is telling me to stuff myself with food
the reason why I am not ovulating for three months?

My sister said: Did you tell her of how Celine Lopez managed to be 5 feet, 4 inches tall
and be just 80 pounds?
I doubt it if she has trouble ovulating.

Do I have to gag myself with food and hoping that one of these days,
I will be a certified woman again, coz if not, it's gonna be the fourth month!
Yes, I had my couple of oh so lazy days and i even had trouble sleeping because my stomach is so full.
i barely moved any muscle in my body except from my jaw in those days..
But still, I threw up a couple of times that made me feel like I am bulimic.
Hello, I so looove good food why would I want it all go down to waste?

The doctor even told me to gain weight, so I stopped exercising.
But wouldn't it be healthier if I burn all those cholesterol and fat so I won't give myself a heart attack?
But still, I AM NOT OVULATING!

why, oh why?!

I worked so hard to achieve the not so lanky posture by trying to make myself healthy whilst it is not enough???
I take my vitamins, I even embrace all the good things in life but still,
my body is acting weird.

Why, oh, why?
Where is the balance here people?!
I bet those super thin models that are half my size do not have a problem with menstruation and most especially with PMS.

They can put up a big poster as well that says:
Yes, we are models.
Yes, we are so thin.
Yes, we barely eat and we HATE CARBO.
Yet, we ovulate.

...and shove it in my face.

Why, oh, why???

not soo planned pleasures

since chocolates gives me headaches,
this is the time to indulge in the good/bad for me stuff.
but a mistake to forgot to buy chocolates that i so love!
sayang talaga... I so can afford to be dizzy and have headaches this week!
since i really dont have anything serious to do,
may nagpapasakit sana ng ulo ko diba?
but the stores are closed and i am afraid to walk in the streets just to hunt for the good cocos!
anyway, i'm still here at xandi's place. Good conversation,
Good food, good dessert and that unforgettable and orgasmic chocolate and cream tea! man, i don't even have to wash the dishes!I am so gaining weight as we speak.
i slept for 12 hours today, and after having a good and fun conversation with my fab bestfriend while eating for 4 hours,
we then again went back to bed!

this Is hedonism...

a hedonist's puny mistake

Oh, a piece of advise,
try not to scrub yourself too much if you are taking a bath.
most especially with luffa.
Geez, if you've seen my back,
it looks like i had a big fight with at least three cats!
i am so not kidding!
i am in pain...
buti nalang busog ako...
thanks to xandi for overfeeding me.
if you see a fat giraffe next week,
that's sooo me.

Leakage of a Hedonist

4th of April around 5pm.

As I walk through the streets of Legaspi Village,
I hum the "I am breaking free"... I do not really have a strong fondness in that Highschool Musical song but those lines almost made my eyes teary.
It is so unnatural that in this time of the day, I am already armed with my ipod and shoulder bag. That I can still see clearly the faces of people passing by.
It still is too early to feel my freedom.
And that moment was too sweet it was almost poetic.
No schedules, just pure spontainety!
This is a long holiday of pure fun and all- me- I- am -selfish kind of thing.

No wonder I love singlehood.

A few more steps and I see tons of people buying DVDs as if it is on a serious bargain and there is no tomorrow.

This is Lent.

As of me, I have to hurry. I still have a date with Sam Milby.

To my surprise, I have never thought that Havaianas stores made such a good marketing strategy that you will mistook those lines for Lotto tickets.

Yes. This is Lent.

As I breathe the air filled freon and other polluted gases of Makati,
I have found my peace.

If most people are heading towards their provinces or the beach,
my body and soul just want silence.
I am not up for roadtrips and adventures.
For a couple of more days,
I do wish to cut the cord to the outside world.

I need this.
I need to rest.
I find my body rejecting work and stress lately.
I have to recharge so I can be out there again.
Working in full function.
Getting back in the game...


Darn,I have to stop this crap.
My Sam is waiting.