no regrets?

i had my first crush in preparatory school.
i know it is too darn early to have a crush at such a young age.
but what can i do? he's adorable.
too bad he didn't became my boyfriend at that time.
(don't be shocked.i have a friend who had a boyfriend in prep.no kidding.)

oh, this is the time of chiz curlz


and peewee!



the next one became my long time crush.
we were in first grade then.he has this cool hair cut with long and funky bangs.
i used to watch him everytime he cracks a joke during recess
while i munch on my two pandesal with cheese and orange juice in tupperware cup
with my blue lunchbox.

I have learned that he's really smart when we were in fifth grade.
he usually get high grades to almost perfect quizzes without breaking a sweat
(or maybe he seriously studies at home then act cool in class without cramming).
until now, my heart palpitates whenever i see him.

during the second grade that i had my first kiss.
well, i do not know if it can be considered as a kiss because the cute kid kissed me on my elbow.
hmmm..i wonder if it was a fetish.
he watches porn at that time already.
hahaha....
or maybe my mighty kid shoes and pig tails with pink ribbons had an additional appeal to him.
or it was that blue johnson's baby cologne and baby powder...

on the fifth grade that i first had someone serenade me.
and that lucky song was



"bakit labis kitang mahal" by ariel rivera. embarassing but oh sooo true.

i was in sixth grade that i actually realized that i love rock music other than

ultimate warrior,





brett "the hitman" heart


and shawn michaels of WWF(world wrestling federation).


and yeah,



jon bon jovi was such a hearthrob to me.but it wasn't that bad.




i know a girl who made a portrait of justin timberlake before she became a fine arts student. laban ka?

highschool years was not a good year for me. i had a bunch of crushes including math geeks.but who wants to date a girl who listens to

marilyn manson and reads anne rice, right?

it was in college that i met my first boyfriend.
and yes, marilyn manson finally added to my appeal of being desirable.

he's a big rock fan, although in the end, he got so jealous of manson,
he stopped listening to his music.haha! cute...
i had my few shares of crushes in college as well.
(but hey, i was faithful the whole time, okay?wag kang magalit :) ).

but this particular guy that i totally regret being my crush.
it wasn't because i am not his type and he considers me as invisible.
i was so smitten by him because he listens to a lot of goth bands.
but my friends do keep on pointing out his imperfections.
they often tell me.ona, crush mo yan? he's got long hair,
he's tall, thin but with beer belly na parang butete,
he's dirty and he's got a set of really bad teeth!
but still, he makes me smile everytime i see him!
but after two years of not seeing butete guy,
then i have realized...why did i freaking like him?!
the hell was i thinking.

oh well, i am still not cool after college.



i still like sam. even if we already know he's dating piolo.