miss ko na magmura

putangina! gusto kong matulog!
'tangina! gusto kong kumain ng kumain!
paksyet! wala pa'kong ipod earphones kase ang mahal!
fucker! ang tagal ko nang hindi nakakapanood ng gig!
tangina!miss ko nang uminom!
tangina!miss ko na magpa-massage!
putangina!putangina!putangina!putangina!putangina!
putangina!putangina!putangina!putangina!putangina!
putangina!putangina!putangina!putangina!putangina!
frustrated na frustrated nako!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
friday na, putangina!
gusto ko nang umuwi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

old photos

forgive my cheap camera phone.
here are some of the pics that i have in it:

xandi at beach house in UP.


we just love to eat....



my stuffed toys. maky, piggy and coco



maky's photo moment

ultimatum

all i want right now is to see the big chest of jason bourne in the big screen-
not to mention a few inches of his nipples.
call it almost like a gay talk- i had it this weekend anyway.
i have to find the time to see bourne ultimatum,
hoping that i do not have to drag myself out
when it will be on a rainy day.

i have to get to see the film before the last show ends.

anyway, i get to see disturbia last night.
the freaking movie made me tired.
effective suspense thriller
that seems like i was harassing my date
everytime i hold him.
i'll leave the synopsis and the review of this flick to others.
i am still tired up to this moment.

anyway, my head is a mess.
still have a biatch of a miraine from time to time.

the best of the best

these stuff killed me!
got them from chucknorrisfacts.com.

* Chuck Norris trick-or-treated as himself as a child.
* Chuck Norris invented the question mark.
* Chuck Norris can split the atom. With his bare hands.
* On Valentine's Day, Chuck Norris gives his wife the still beating heart of one of his enemies.
Being very romantic, Chuck Norris believes every day should be Valentine's Day.

* On the SAT if you put Chuck Norris for every answer you will score over 8000
* Chuck Norris can jump-start a car using jumper cables attached to his nipples.
* Chuck Norris needs a monkeywrench and a blowtorch to masturbate.
* The best part of waking up, is not Folgers in your cup, but knowing that Chuck Norris didn't kill you in your sleep.
* Instead of having a cigarette after sex, Chuck Norris heads outside and brands his cattle.
* When Chuck Norris wants an egg, he cracks open a chicken.
* Chuck Norris can sneeze with his eyes open.
* Chuck Norris does not know about this website.
If he did he would have just deleted the internet.
* Chuck Norris puts the laughter in mansLAUGHTER.
* Chuck Norris can judge a book by its cover.
* Chuck Norris doesn't consider it sex if the woman survives.
* Chuck Norris doesn't kill two birds with one stone.
Chuck Norris kills all birds, with two stones. The ones in his pants.


visit the damn cool site if you want to see more!

about a boy

Tonight, i deserve a chocolate cake
and a chocolate drink.
It has been two days since I gave my last shot.
Hours ago, my phone finally rang.
And the only answer was "Eto, nangangamusta lang..."
Three years is long enough for me to move on.
"Tinatanggap ko na natalo ako..."

This is the start.
I will wake up and finally stop loving him...

Hindi naman nakakamatay ang lungkot e...

chilly childhood stuff

there are things that somewhat i still cannot grow out from.
i bet if i hear the lines
" please don't go girl...tell me you'll stay...
by new kids on the block,
i'll still go gaga and sing along--even in public.
and when it comes to my first crush and first love,
i can say i am still not over them--
my heartbeats con espresso.

i have a theory,
maybe that's why JLo chose Mark Anthony.
maybe she used to be a Menudo fan
and Mark Anthony is her puppy love.
when will come a time that we will really be over that feeling?
well, i got over Doogie Hauser 'coz he's openly gay now.
Maybe those girls who used to fancy this certain member
of N'Sync group, we'll they'll probaby over him now.
there's no use in competing.
we only learn to accept.
but what am i talking about?
i failed to see Sam today at Glorietta and i felt really bad.
and we only learn to admire...

everytime i eat spanish bread in the afternoon,
it never failed to remind me of a certain moment
that i was playing outside our house
eating and listening to the AM radio of our neighbor
(Darn, there are so many power ballads in the early 90's
and i enjoyed singing some of them).

i used to like stuffed toys when i was kid,
and my favorite was this cute brown dog we call Dodong,
and when i was in highschool,
i learned to dislike such things.
these things collects millions of dustmites
not to mention lints that makes me more of a psycho.
and nobody gave me anything anyway.

do we even grow out from our favorite author
when we were younger?
of course we do.
we mature, we become smarter
and we learn to disagree with them.
but a friend said that even if we try to act scholarly enough,
we will never get over reading erotica
and romance pocketbooks.

i guess she was right.
sex will always be sex.

knight in shining armour

if there will be a modern rapunzel in these times,
i am sure that all she wants
is to be saved from flood.

yesterday, i failed to go to the office.
it was raining pretty hard
and when i went outside,
the street turned into a fishbowl.
i was trapped.
horrifying feeling crawled up.
andami ko na ngang absent e...
still i do not have any choice but stay at jopet's.
i wonder if i have a knight in shining armour to save me,
aka he's got a ride,
carry me in his arms,
drive me to the office
and will fetch me after.
the handy savior that i can count on.
pero mahirap yun,
he has a career too!
......................................


no matter how i try to look tough, independent
and act that everything is all right,
i do always enjoy the benefit of having a "knight in shining armour".
...........................

we all want to be saved from something sometimes.
we all do want to be saved
and we all do want to feel that we are not alone-sometimes.

independent and ungrateful that i seem like,
i never forget the good things that people has done for me.
___________________________________

(my friends really are my knight in shining armour
but it's too cheesy and all of them
are going to gag if i blog about how good they are to me.
i bet, i will not be their friend anymore.
we are not the sloppy joe types)

rice garbage

artsy people consider junk shops
and hardwares stores as "The Place" to be in.
It is a given fact.

but i wonder if there are a lot of people who keeps stuff
just for the heck of it?

i have this habit of collecting anything that will
remind me of a good memory.
and these tickets, wrappers and other stuff
are the things that crowds my drawing table for
years now.
what's the point anyway?
nobody knows the sentimental value
of that pile of garbage but me?

why do i still keep them?
maybe for the reason that
every piece of that memory reminds me
of how i have lived my life.
how much i have enjoyed
or how sad i was at certain points.

so far, i have no regrets.
but i am thinking of making a couch from it.
yes, a couch.
at least it'll be functional.
who knows..

what did i do today?

>rate marc jacobs'
and ann demeulemeester's 2007 fall collection.
hideous or fabulous?
what a lame tuesday.
but some of marc's new works are quite fab i'd say.
God, i love ann! fantabulous works,
but the fur stuff kills meeeee!)


TO XANDI:
since you love Betsy Johnson,
i think, this look will suit you.
from her 2007 Fall collection, of course...

@ jopet's

i do not know where to really post this.
but maybe blogspot is better.
i am much comfortable with strangers
reading my thoughts than with people i really know.
i actually told my sister not to read my blog,
i am quite a different person when it comes to my friends.
friends and family are separate.
you might find it odd but true.

what am i at jopet's without my hair product?
well, i do pick my nose,
i really have oily face,
i brush my teeth as often-
same manner of how often i eat.
every trip to the kitchen to wash my hands or anything
will be a quick stop towards the refrigerator.
i always, always check what's inside.
looking for something to nibble onto.
i saw dad doing the same thing at home.
i definitely got it from him.

aside from eating,
i do really enjoy listening to
"no me ames" by mark anthony and JLo.
and if you check my ipod,
not all songs in it are considered as cool.
my guilty pleasures...
another thing is,
i am so thrilled whenever i purchase a tagalog pocket book!
the senorito series or whatever that most women read.
to be honest, there are good ones
and the kilig factor is there!
though i dispose it after reading.
EVIDENCE.

i am a tea addict.
milk tea, chrysanthemum,
jasmine,green tea ....any kind.
though i refrain from drinking it
during weekdays.
tea is diuretic
therefore it hampers work.

i eat in my bed even if i hate cockroaches.
(how can i eat in my bed if i'm always in the office anyway?)
i burn phonelines usually.
i eat and talk over the phone to gossip and stuff.
it takes longer if i'm talking to a guy friend.
gossiping...no kidding...

i hate clothes.
i hate wearing clothes.
i am at my most comfortable in sheer fabric.

given that i love food,
whenever i have a craving and i can cook it,
i will cook it.
no matter what time or how starve i am.
i am like a mad woman cutting vegetables
or frying something in the kitchen
with a blank look on her face.
true.

i do love to watch Pinoy films,
most especially romance and stuff.
call it crap but i enjoy watching
piolo pascual and sam milby on my screen
(but hopefully not together).
i am such a sucker for romantic flicks.
and i usually cry in the movies
(okay, i cry for any possible reason).

whatelse?...
hmmm...
that's all i can think of right now.
see?
i am almost normal.