rice gurl's prayers and diet dilemma

102 lbs is no joke for me.
i gained 4 lbs this year.
i am not weight obsessed
but the clothes i wear are just the right sizes
so i cannot afford to gain a lot.
it is not a matter of vanity but a matter of budget.
i cannot afford to buy new wardrobe to go with my bigger size.

but screw it now,
i had fever for three days and cannot afford to take sick leaves.
now, this freaking weird spasm in my chest is bugging me.
i lost my health card so i cannot visit the doctor this month.
i just have to eat.
that's all i can do for now.
crazy me.
if mom knows about this,
she'll drag me to the doctor.
she panics a lot anyway.

it is quite odd that there comes a time
that most problems arise in one period.
obstacles towards happiness...

my only daily prayers for myself is that
i thank our creator that i was able
to finish each day no matter how hard or easy it is.
that i do not get sick often and that i am always safe.

whatever happens,
I thank God for every trial.
he has plans for me
and every task he gives me will only make me stronger...