books!

this month,
i am still overflowing with joy
to have these:

One Good UP Day

sa UP Film Center



dito ako nag dorm dati. summer!

UP Bahay ng Alumni. Katapat lang ito ng UP Film Center

sino si bad boy ng UP CFA?


dito lang ako kumakain ng fishballs at isaw...


lunch ko.

haay Oble...

good bye, coco

i am quite certain that only few people
read my blog.
but what the heck,
this is my spot to spill my thoughts sometimes.


this is another surreal day for me to
leave the office on the dot.
my officemates are still in the battle when i left.
i have nothing else to do already.
work oddly stopped for me
and i was dead tired even before the clock ticked at 5.30 pm.

still, it's almost eleven and my body is still aching
from all the exhaustion.
i do wish this bottle of coors will help me sleep.
for two hours, i was wating for the
sleep fairy to lull me.
and still in vain.

thoughts...

what are the things that i plan to give up?
is this going to be a new year's resolution list as well?
NO.

but i am finally giving up eating chocolates.
i solemly swear with my right hand raised that
eating chocolates can kill me.
it had happened twice already that chocolate migraine attacked
while i was crossing a busy street.
the pain was almost unbearable
and i almost dropped my groceries.

i do not have any deathwish or anything.
i am fine with aging and growing old,
i just do not want to be run over by a speeding
vehicle ---ever.


yesterday's blog was about uncertainty.
and now giving up?

darn, am i turning this blog
into rice gurl's stale left over and past issues!
uhh...NO.

it's just the freaking delectable chocolates that
i am so giving up.

i'll keep on convincing
myself...
i'll keep on telling this to myself...

good bye, chocolates...
good bye....

the uncertain blog

it is a given fact that
life is full of uncertainty
and the only constant in this world is change.


this morning,
it's been days that i am itching
to spend money to buy a second hand macintosh.

for a couple of bucks,
i can buy myself a decent machine.
but tonight, i have realized that
what if after five months,
after my contract ends, will i quit?
i will surely be needing money to get by
till i land on a new job.

but what if i am unemployable?
kidding.

what if next year will be the start of a new business?
i will be needing that money as my capital.

uncertainty sinked in.
and the sure solution is money.
i will be needing a sewing machine
more than a macintosh.


it is 11 pm.
i dig in over a bowl of oily, soggy fries
as my dinner and i'm still thinking about work.
how i love it sometimes,
and how i feel like i am trapped
in a warzone in some days.

it sucks that i do not know
what's going to happen to me in the future.
if i am in the right path or not.
i am having mixed emotions.
i am excited and at the same time terrified.

the future...


if only i can escape uncertainty.

maybe i'm just tired.
i just came from a warzone...

no glam, baby! part 2

there are professions out there that are so intimate
that they know a detailed part of you.

would you date your dentist or gynecologist?

i remember that i was once visiting a familiy dentist
when i had a chance to meet his cute son who is a med student.

i met him when i was on "that chair"
with my mouth wide open and my saliva drooling!

i was having my root canal and oral prophylaxis at that time.
what if i have a chance with the cute guy but his dad said:

well, i took out the nicotine stains on her teeth
and there were signs that she neglects flossing sometimes, my son.
visiting your dentist is really personal.

how about your male gynecologist?
retroverted uterus measures blah blah blah...
left ovary measures blah blah blah...
right ovary measures blah blah blah...
cervix is intact.
will these thoughts play around his head?

how about if you date your dermatologist?
your warts, zits, oily skin, hyper pigmentation...

i mean, i wont even dare fart for days when my guy is around!

there are unglamorous moments that totally kills the romance.