life is full of uncertainty
and the only constant in this world is change.
this morning,
it's been days that i am itching
to spend money to buy a second hand macintosh.
for a couple of bucks,
i can buy myself a decent machine.
but tonight, i have realized that
what if after five months,
after my contract ends, will i quit?
i will surely be needing money to get by
till i land on a new job.
but what if i am unemployable?
kidding.
what if next year will be the start of a new business?
i will be needing that money as my capital.
uncertainty sinked in.
and the sure solution is money.
i will be needing a sewing machine
more than a macintosh.
it is 11 pm.
i dig in over a bowl of oily, soggy fries
as my dinner and i'm still thinking about work.
how i love it sometimes,
and how i feel like i am trapped
in a warzone in some days.
it sucks that i do not know
what's going to happen to me in the future.
if i am in the right path or not.
i am having mixed emotions.
i am excited and at the same time terrified.
the future...
if only i can escape uncertainty.
maybe i'm just tired.
i just came from a warzone...
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